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chAlice before i really begin, i'll share some stuff with you. it might seem like i am turning this around on myself, but at least it will set the scene for my advice, you know?

i have always, always been the more sexual person in a relationship. or not in a relationship. in _________, i was insatiable. i had sex with over fifty people there, men & women, always a one night stand. when i moved back here, i knew i wanted to make a change. i had "known" before, but never had the courage to actually do it. when i met R it was especially difficult because he was still "with" sara, & i was living with K. weird. well, i was patient with him (we didn't have sex for a loooong time). & even when we did, it seemed like eons in between. but our relationship was technically open; he had told me that monogamy was practically a hardship for him, & i loved him, so i took it, painful though it was.
the night of my 21st birthday, he found a condom on my floor. the night had been probably a month & a half before, but my room was messy, & i cleaned it haphazardly before the party, leaving the evidence in full sight. he was very angry & left, hence my sobriety the whole night, aside from some marijuana & three drinks. not your typical 21st.
after that night, i think i got through to him
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my only point of judgement you left a used condom on your floor for a month and a half 070129
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