fat_girl pissed off and fat I am so fucking sick of chatting to guys online... and then they start to ask sizes.. basically seeing how easy your are.. find out I'm large and in charge.. and say "you're not my type" or "why aren't you thin" bla bla bla..or they're just fucking rude. I'm not sure if it's this town, but if you aren't 125 and blonde.. no one wants to even talk to you. It doesn't mean that I don't know how to have fun or I don't know how to party.. It doens't mean I'M LAZY, it doesn't mean I sit around all day eating burping and farting. I have never even kissed a guy because I'm larger than average.. seriously if all guys want is a hole to stick thier dick in, I think I want to be gay. 021203 ... still pissed and still fat p.s. I realize there are fat people that are gross.. but there are some pretty fucking gross skinnny ones too. I wouldn't even mind a fat guy, but even fat guys think they need a supermodel. Girls such as myself have to try that much harder to prove that we are Not Lazy by dressing nice and staying conservative, hiding our ass, smelling nice, being nice, not judging.. and so on. There are so many skinny girls that are discusting yet guys choose them because they aren't fat. 021203 ... still pissed and still fat p.s. I realize there are fat people that are gross.. but there are some pretty fucking gross skinnny ones too. I wouldn't even mind a fat guy, but even fat guys think they need a supermodel. Girls such as myself have to try that much harder to prove that we are Not Lazy by dressing nice and staying conservative, hiding our ass, smelling nice, being nice, not judging.. and so on. There are so many skinny girls that are discusting yet guys choose them because they aren't fat. 021203 ... freddie mercury fat-bottomed girls, you make the rockin' world go round... 021203 ... ruba hey pissed off. please send me mail sometime. bellajg1@aol.com...i wanna talk to you about something. discretely. 021203 ... littel_elf I empathize, pissed off. I've basically given up though. I plan on never getting married, etc. If something good happens to disrupt those plans, then so be it... but I'd rather be pessimistic about it, and plan on the worse. What do we need men for anyway? (I'm not gay and don't want to be) Forget them! I can lead a perfectly happy life without them. I have a friend who claimed to be my "best friend" and who called me her "sis," and she used to tease me about becoming one of those little old ladies who talk to their cats. Right on. That's what I want to be. Talk to cats, read books, watch tv... of course first I have to get through life... no fast forward button here. 030204 ... Mr. J Hay I am not fat or picky. I Skinny girls don't like me because I am not like fabio and the fat girls wont give me a chance to like them. I loose both ways 030328 ... blather spell check lose 030328 ... blather grammatical context check the word us spelled properly, simply misused. 030328 ... a correction of self the word "is" spelled... etc. 030328 ... jessicafletcher i'm a fat girl. and i'm fucking cute. people either call me fat and are mean to me... or they're like hey lets go out. and there's no in between. and people are so fucking cruel... they say shit like "wow. that's not how i pictured you." and then you never hear from them again. i used to be happy with myself until my best friend became a size six and now everyone shits on me when i'm with her. i think i'm gonna go fucking requiem for a dream style and get some diet pills. 030329 ... phil It's your own fault. 030329 ... celestias shadow don't you DARE!!!! *stands between jessica and medicine cabinet with arms crossed and evil, threatening glare* 030928 ... nomatter I used to be bigger than lost some weight. Honestly it hasn't made very much difference. I feel better about myself, but besides that. 030928 ... suzie It's based on societal pressures, generalizations, and sterotypes that familiarity breeds. You don't impress "the guys" with a, lets say a plain jane chubby girl, unless she comes from a wealthy family, but then of course these guys are assholes in the first place and why would you want to bother hurting yourself esteem by trying to have a relationship with them. You're noticing your situation first and foremost because you are stuck in the role aware of how people are treating you in comparison to your peers. That's natural but you might have to realize that the general population still has a lot to learn, and although not perfect are coming a long way (trust me I know, I was fat and had other various obvious flaws making me less than "desirable"). This is too hard, but not, I'm lazy and no one will probably read it anyway so... that's all I want to say. 040223 ... ee beep peep it doesn't matter what others say. most people are full of shit anyway. do whatever you want as long as it's for yourself 040224 ... lief if i was a skinny man i'd want a big fat girl to keep me warm at night, sit on me when i was bad, and squish me. frequently. 061013 ... ungreat I am a fat girl. It's the reason i never dated. It's the reason i didn't do things, and wasnt in with the cool kids. It is my fault because i make bad decisions that have led me to this. but the tide is changing. i've dated some guys. I got my self esteem up, because why shouldnt i let myself see how gorgeous i am. I count calories. I see the weight coming off. 30 pounds gone. 50 more to go. i'll still be fat to most people. I'll be healthier though. and maybe i'll have the opportunity to wonder things like "if i was fat would this guy still like me". because if the answer is no, he's gone. i'm changing because i dont want my life to limited by the size on my pants. I want people to see me and not peices of me that they find most repulsive. i want men to stop saying things and giggling. i'm already gorgeous, i just want you to see it too. If i dont change now and grit my teeth and work for it, if i take the easy way out, then i'll never do it for good, and i'm playing for keeps this time. 070910 ... daf You rock. Fat people with the courage to change are amazing. Thanks for not spiraling into self pity. You go girl. (One of my tricks was to get up and go to people instead of calling them. (I only used the phone when absolutely impractical not to.) If they weren't there, it was another excuse to get up and go somewhere again later. Good luck.) 070911 ... woman taking power I don't want to be a fat girl but so what that I am? I deserve to get fucked or fuck whomever I want to. This stupid asshole wouldn't fuck me I bought him dinner at a restaurant that was a good one. I think he was actually gay. I mean I have fucking tits! I am a woman! I'm not some skanky flat chested idiot who barely eats at all and does nothing but think about herself all day long. So what? Maybe if I looked like a skinny young person he would of put it in me. Asshole. I'm doing what I want. 130603 what's it to you? who go blather from