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MollyCule You said once last year that you were in love with me. I never got the chance to ask you if that was true or not.

You were the only one who listened to me then. You were the one who said I should stop drinking and maybe think more about my life and where it was going. And I never listened, I never cared. All of that landed me in the mental hospital a few weeks later. Every night in there I fell asleep to the noises of Valerio doing aerobics in the hallway and talking to himself in Spanish. And every night I dreamed about you. I knew then that I would miss you forever.

A few months later, Snowday came out to theaters, and every time I saw a commercial or a poster for it I thought about you. You look so much like the male lead. Never did watch that movie until last week.

And now we are friends again, and both single. Is it just my imagination or is there something there in the space between us, hanging, like a body yet to be discovered? Do you feel it too? I'm not sure if I want you to or if I want this to just be on my part.

Remember that day we were dancing in the aisle at Denny's, and Amber took that picture, and when I turned to look at you there was that Iwanttokissyou tension, and we both just looked away?

I'm having dreams about you again.

Save me, little boy, you are my only hope.

I miss you so much. Even when you're sitting next to me.
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silentbob i only scar
i only mame
wouldn't want to scratch your pretty surface
The only thing i do is destroy

I'm going to fucking cry now, molly
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grendel don't let me touch you again

the little spark like an opiate rush whenever your fingertips are near mine.

i don't want to be addicted to a hope for what can never be.

and there is no recovery from this hopeless desire.

perhaps it is better that you are not here right now.
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MollyCule you can come cry with me, Bobby. We'll save all of our tears and make white wine. 001207
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Thanatos If I touch you again, you'll just get dirtier. Should I see you again, the stains of our past will be ever present in my omni-vision.

Run away from my touch, or be cursed with it ever after.
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misstree because i've already said my goodbyes, taken my last breath of you, and i don't want to reach back when i jump off this cliff... 001208
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circe let's slap the people we love.

if i had a laptop, i'd sit under the tree in my front yard and miss you.

bastard.
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MollyCule i knew it wouldn't work. making love on new year's day as the sun comes up. didn't even care if everyone else in the house knows or not . . . 010102
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thelotus it all fell into place, though, didn't it? leonard cohen is playing right now, 5:11 am, not tired at all. peaceful, happy, complete. 010116
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lovers lament because i broke you the first time, and what makes you think i won't do it again. content to be with me although i am not completely yours. i long for me, perhaps we should end this now before things get out of hand. 010117
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MollyCule don't let me shatter this chrisalys you've built up to hide the scars. 010227
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freakizh for the sake of my fingers
stop me when they long to you

i know,
why should you if it feels so good?

remember that adan and eve were prohibited to bit that darn apple?
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freakizh i meant bite, darling. 010723
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anyone A brief brush of fingers,
and I feel your warmth emanating
from an angry heart
Wanting, desiring, desperately yearning
to hold you close and feel
two souls connecting, yet
my mind pulls away, scolding
the inner-child for having hope,
having a feeling that somehow
Things are right.
A religion I never belonged to pulls
my peaceful body, slaps it awake from
a dream, of yearning,
at the bottom of an ocean of
A life I knew too well, yet
never understood.

Don't let me touch you again, for if I do
I may destroy
the prison cell
which directs the emotions of my mind.
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the Police dont_stand_so close to me 010723
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Sol dont let me your soft powder skin,
envelops like a breeze, like sand like cream
my fingers touch and stick, i cannot let them stray, searching?
i cling as you leave,
search for your fingertips,
know if they hook, i wont ever sleep again
as i dont sleep now
i feel your laugh
you hair that prickles my face
as you turn your head
away dont see
i know you know, i think
you have gone cold to my tasting touch
my tired gaze
afraid?
I fear never hearing again
not to feel your shoulder, soft and the band of your top, tickling my palm
and your belly
fish white
cat soft
breathwarm
and funnily smiling
I know now what i never let myself know
I am a burn on your surface
a fear in your heart
and can never know what i want.
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confabulation one night was enough.
so many memories made of one moment
solid moving mass of time
don't let me touch you again
I'm not strong enough to deal
don't let me hold you again
the first time was just too real.
I want you so bad
but this is way too much...
for me.
and this is way too little...
for you.
I'd like to mean something to you.
I'd like for you to mean something to me.
But mostly...
I'd just like to






screw you.
yaaaayyyy!!
you are too good to forget :)
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nemo but i liked it 010724
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psychobabe oh please
let there be a force
that can stop me
from touching you again.
I didnt want it
to be this way
but you seemed
to want it like this.
From what we had
a life to full
of love,
Now you want to end it
and just say were done?
Distance is such
a poor thing.
I see you
i talk to you
i may act like i dont want you
but deep inside
its ripping me apart...
seeing you each day
acting like were friends
i konw you feel it to
the temptation thats burning
like a candle
still ablaze in the dark.
There always seems to be
apart thats always missing..
you fill it in me
and give me what i need.
Dont let me touch you again
it will only cause us more pain

"If i profane with my unworthiest hand this holy shrine, the gentle sin is this..my lips to blushing pilgrims ready stand to smooth thy rough touch with a tender kiss"
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shiva she wants to say it. and i know it. but this is all i have wanted for the past 6 months, more than anything, and the thought never leaves her lips. so i indulge. i know this can only end in our worlds crashing apart, and possibly theirs as well, with a ton of certain unhappiness thrown around like shrapnel. but that is pretty much where this is headed anyway, and i can think of nothing more beautiful than to be in her arms. so i let her touch, and i touch back with even more fervor, trying to make up for the future that will never happen. 010904
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distorted tendencies It's torture
I'm afraid
I don't want to become bound
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athsara waiting is torture worse 010907
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ClairE ...because I don't know when to stop.

"Quit while you're ahead." I should have that dangling in front of me like the proverbial carrot. ALL THE TIME!

Man.
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ClairE We will never say this to each other.

I like making humongous promises.

Why do I feel like I am bargaining with you?
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