don't_depend_on_him Ouroboros he's certainly not depending on me 060510 ... Ouroboros focus focus on my own responsibilities instead 060510 ... Ouroboros i keep dreaming about him 060520 ... Ouroboros because he is not interested in being honest or open 060521 ... Ouroboros i will keep it all to myself saying it outloud to you sharing myself with you isn't getting me anywhere id rather write poems and feel my heart beat 060521 ... Ouroboros Good job falling for unavailable men- yes- go for the one who steals and lies and drinks and avoids and evades, go for the one who relies on drugs and his mania to keep him going, fall for the one whom you don't trust. Make sure to not look deeper, or question or wonder. Just keep on keep on. 061003 ... Ouroboros "Do you like me?" I asked the blue blazer. No answer. Silence bounced out of his books. Silence fell off his tongue and sat between us and clogged my throat. It slaughtered my trust. It tore cigarettes out of my mouth. We exchanged blind words, and I did not cry, and I did not beg, blackness lunged in my heart, and something that had been good, a sort of kindly oxygen, turned into a gas oven. Do you like me? How absurd! What's a question like that? What's a silence like that? And what am I hanging around for, riddled with what his silence said? lessons in hunger anne_sexton 070209 what's it to you? who go blather from