definitely_addicted the awful truth well, Here's a new day. What to do? Well, i'll smoke I smoked so much last night that I start to choke I'm waiting and waiting for my eyes to align with my brain once again so I can see out my mind And the rain on the window's been steady for days and the smoke in my lungs just resinates and stays and I hack and i cough till i'm down on the floor... gimmie more. gimmie more. Gimmie more of that smoke that I take in the veins Gimmie more of that death that I drop on my brain Gimmie more of not sleeping more of not eating more of my whining, more of my screaming more of these burns on my fingers and hands more of these times i forget all my plans gimmie more of this smoke gimmie more of it now gimmie more i can inhale if i exhale somehow here's a new night, what to do, well, let's drive we can drive all around the same streets all night we can speed or go slow we could crash and we'd die or we'd just keep on driving to the sunlight here's a new thought, let's live today open your mouth boy, say something to me well you know we've been stuck here on this bench for so long i am drenched in my sweat i've been building it up all night do you feel ok, dude you don't look all right hey i'm ok, just one toke short for today fill up that bowl, brother, pass it to me. the rain on the window's been steady for days and the smoke in my lungs just resinates and stays and I hack and i cough till i'm down on the floor... gimmie more. gimmie more. Gimmie more of that smoke that I take in the veins Gimmie more of that death that I drop on my brain Gimmie more of not sleeping more of not eating more of my whining, more of my screaming more of these burns on my fingers and hands more of these times i forget all my plans gimmie more of this smoke gimmie more of it now gimmie more i can inhale if i exhale somehow 060906 ... caresscoffee i'm addicted to coffee.. i have a pot of coffee and then i make another and it's none-stop unless i'm sleeping.. which isn't very often 060906 ... Ouroboros coffee each morning or that nasty headache and that craving slip in 060907 ... SKINNY xanax, booze, robotrippin, pills, speed, gasoline god help me. im going to a long term treatment center whenever they approve my insurance. these days just going to work with my dad and on the computer at his store for 10 hours, noone to talk to, trying not to get fucked up. *scottish accent* choose life. choose a job. choose a career. choose a family... fuck. someone converse with me. 060908 ... skinny i've been talking to a dragonfly today sober. goshhhh 060908 ... Ouroboros Samie asks me if i want to go to school with her- i'm visiting her and others in Phoenix for a couple days- i say sure, i'll just hang out in the cafe and drink coffee and read this excellent new book (infinite_jest)- after making my way around the small community college, with patches of desert next to shaded grassy knolls, i step into the airconditioning and make my way to the coffee cart, noticing it is cash only i reach into my bag and find no wallet. damn. left it at her house. and now i have 3.5 hours and no coffee. it's these small decisions and overlooks that can make my life slightly miserable. 060922 ... factory reject it's only the internet... You've never even met them Get off myspace... 060922 what's it to you? who go blather from