cause_in_the_end_you_still_have_no_friends Aimee I wish i were more outgoing, and were able to walk into a room and by the end of 5 mins have life long friends. I'd say I'm just too shy and distrusting of everyone to be able to be that way. I wish I could be though. Logan's that way. I envy him a lot of the time because of that too... I can envy him all I want but in the end i still have no friends 030802 ... minnesota_chris I stop calling them, after awhile. 030802 ... ashmanzhou looked out this morning at the sky realised i hadnt seen it in a week wondered what id been looking at instead god damn i wonder why im like this and why some other person is not but i can never answer myself i have no pity left for me always wondered what happened to them after the 'accident' fleeing from blame maybe a couple tried to talk to me but most left me drifting i wonder why they tried i wonder why the rest didnt what i felt was too intense for pretence i was left with reality what makes my end i wonder what blurs my sight for a final stare what shakes my hand this morning what reason to have those feelings before stared at a person today they were crying with someone there beside them went over to the windowsill heard a word or two clinical pain sterile agony clean cold fear near to me cut my finger today onions of all things went over to the mirror to see red smear again on the glass not a hope not today only more of the emptiness and i was left without a dream someone saw me today just a glance i was testing the sight of the sky holding damaged hand to ward off sun she smiled even just a hint and then was gone is this the end will my eyes blur if only a little is there no one to hear me cry 030803 ... minnesota_chris I think I'm getting a motorcycle! Yippee! 030808 what's it to you? who go blather from