burdens_are_lifted_from_me Soma So I wrote you a letter today I wrote you a letter letting you know how much I fucking hate you. Well, in nicer terms that that. I know you aren't good at reading into things, but that's what I wrote. I was with you out of PITY for crying out loud. This isn't what a relationship should be. I feel so good.. about breaking up with you, that it isn't even funny. I don't know what to do until I can give you this letter. You're going to be here a week.. and I'm just tickled pink. It's like some inside joke you'll never be a part of. Maybe it's cruel... but you've been far crueler to me. Writing it down.. admitting it. It as if the weight of the world is no longer on my shoulders. 080623 ... unhinged you said you would leave me alone erase me finally and then a strange number came up on my phone and as soon as i said hello hung up as if you needed some confirmation that i was ignoring you mistake and i tried to convince myself today that i forgive you and there was a loosening in my heart around the ball of hate, fear, anger, sadness you put there but it's still there lodged that something i wanted more than anything i couldn't ask him for because of that ball you put in my heart that i could barely stand to be touched but there was a little loosening around it today even though i could never let you know that you_are_forgiven (does that defeat the purpose?) 080623 ... Lemon_Soda I finally closed one door and walked through another. 080623 what's it to you? who go blather from