blathertherapy freak [http://fu.le.ro] tell me, sir what are your problems? what are your dreams? what are ... you? 020508 ... Freak Well first off Im female so please don't call me sir. One of many of my problems is that I dont know what to do. Im going to be graduating from highschool next year and I don't know where to start once schools over. I don't know what kind of career I want if I even want one at all. What am I going to do!!?? My dream is to marry the love of my life and have a small part time job working who knows where and spending the rest of my time at home raising my kid(s) and/or just doing whatever I want to do. Me....Im just a Freak 020508 ... bethanyt NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont ever do that, or if you do whatever, whichever lord have mercy on your soul my problem is that i am fairly coldhearted. i am fairly selfish, and i am very stubborn. i used to be this way and turn to goo when it came to boys but now i'm just this way all the time. everyone else is a little less forthcoming than me and sometimes i think they think i'm less mature becasue of it i love adults, i think at my age people shoudl be adults but all too ofen mistaken maturity for adulthood and just walk around like pompus imbasiles and throwing away all that was their youth, that all too close behind them i tell people what the problem with them is rather than seeing problems in me i lived on my own through high school and now and for some reason people see me as a rebel, and while i am a risk taker, i am still the girl you bring home to mommy i dont know if i'm hung up on that or if everyone else is i dont know if i am hung up on myslef so bad that i dont see anyone trying to be hung up on me which is what i relaly want but not in some breakfast at tiffany's "no matter where i go i am in my own prison coz i'm too araid to fall in love" no Fred baby was wrong and people aren't to be owned and i'm not really selfish i am intrinsically the gentlest romantic you will ever meet but i always come first 020508 ... *Gutter Ponce* If you can't spell imbecile you might want to think about how you use it. 020509 ... fucking me AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK YOU FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK MY DREAMS FUCK MYSELF !!!! 020509 ... very strange hmm, now again, first blather_is_therapy in three_words and now blathertherapy (in three_words). 050123 ... orange sky my problems... i care too much or not at all. i want to succeed, but will it happen? am i open minded or too understanding? then there are all the career options: child psychologist, fashion designer, artist, teacher, sociologist, anthropologist. my dreams... travel the world. adopt children. know what i want to be. buy shawnnee a mini cooper. me... i am a female. aunt. friend. employee. student. dreamer. artist. daughter. watcher. designer. 050123 ... Sans Souci I am having a problem with having problems. Troubles have always been a source of trouble. What to do, what to do? 060131 ... . Certainly cheaper.... 081216 ... Patient who just signed in I find refuge in the listening arms of blather. The addiction to this place can be unhealthy for my soul. But it calls me with the enticement of "This place makes you write more poetry". Yes and no. I enjoy having this audience, but feel restricted to be truly free. And copyright issues are a growing concern. Not to give myself too much credit, but the anonymity of this site makes this an easy target. I am going to let blather be the catalyst but not the platform for poetry. I confess this is not an easy thing to give up. Writing this is good therapy. And so is going to look for a new pair of shoes. I would like to be that observer and rare participant using the gander button as a trigger for my own creative musings. 160613 ... nr blatherapy? 160613 ... Gwen white Hi. So um, I'm just really stressed. I love books. Broadway and anime. My friends tease me about this but I don't think it's really teasing. There's a group at school like me but well there not known to be the most "popular" people. Someone once told me "before you let someone change you, you should get a better grasp of who you are." But I don't know who I am. And that's my story 170922 ... smallhours Hi Gwen white. 170926 ... Risen Blather is the best therapy. The only place I get to speak the truth. I made the mistake of talking a little too openly about my life to a physio this morning, and apparently triggered something called "safeguarding". She wanted to report my situation to the authorities. While I would love to be rescued from perguatory, I don't think the authorities would be at all helpful. I'm sure it would just make things worse. Which they could be. I'm warm, I have a roof over my head, and I'm fed. So all my dreams are dead and I don't see any future for myself. It could be worse. That's what I hold onto. 170926 what's it to you? who go blather from