between_heartbreaks
silentbob i have no one in mind at the moment. 020417
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Syrope working on my next broken heart. 020417
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possessed angel Take mine, I dont need sure don't it. 020417
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stork daddy my heart is 100% better and ready to be broken again for queen and country captain!

good, it's good to see resilience amongst the men. It wasn't that bad after all was it man?

sir, it was an unbearable hell, everything of import was made frivolous and laughable in it's emptying wake because it robbed me of the self which would attempt such...

shutup man...you're blathering on and on...now when i say it wasn't that bad you say no sir, it wasn't and we smile brightly and keep our pains secret. It's the way this country keeps itself together. Understood?

yes sir. understood. lovely weather eh?

Yes...it is nice. I might go for a bicycle ride later.

I'd love to ride a bicycle, but i'm afraid i have no one now...no one to ride a bicycle with me.

FOR GOD"S SAKE MAN...I"LL RIDE THE SILLY BICYCLE WITH YOU NOW BE QUIET....you're making the other men uneasy. Thank you

Yes thank you sir. Lovely day indeed.

Broken hearts...pah...we march to the rhythm of broken hearts...now look lively men...one two one two...hip hup hip hup.

(marching into the distance)
My Celia used to say hip hup, she'd call me her hip hup huppy puppy.
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silentbob ha silly bicycle
classic
020418
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stork daddy my love's like a silly bicycle, i pedal furiously and go backwards. And then i relax and i fly uphills. What sound does your heart make when it breaks? My goes screw you...under it's breath of course. Let me off this sinking ship. I've still got love to give. 020418
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devalis i rest up
for the next one
it's never me that's broken
it's them
is it my problem?
yes.
maybe.
no.
i'd like it to be
but something in me
won't let it
i'm the one
who deals the pain
like a drug
and it hurts
it's unhealthy
but they come back for more

so between_heartbreaks
i stock up
so i'll have more
for the next addict
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IKC 56-80 this is a place i haven't been to yet, this sounds like a place i never want to go

but right now my heart is getting ready to take its first flight and i'm afraid of what might happen if it crashes

['scuse the broken record vibe i'm giving off right now, but i'm a neurotic mess]
020922
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cresentwhench heartbreak never sees itself in the mirror
never has to face the day when it wont be broken
always hurts
always exsists
020923
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god you were dazzled by the exciting new costume of coco, in a way you can't explain. 021009
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ClairE All those nights of tears
All the nagging
All the fuming and the scolding
So much talk involved with love...

And now the emptiness
Rest is not peaceful
And time takes itself
And stretches so far forward
I cannot bear to see it.

"Was it worth it, after all"
and
"CHRIST, you know it ain't easy"
are the two themes.

Blather watches me while my mouth is stopped.

Ambivalence.
031024
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x i realize i am not in another cycle because i am thinking and feeling completely new things 031025
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blown cherry I suppose where I am now counts as this, in the range of kinda happy to blissful contentment, at least until it's too much for him to bear.
Sometimes I want to feel heart broken. It's a bit demented since I know what that would do to me. I don't know if I'm just anticipating the inevitable, or if I have a sick attatchment to the dark. Because I'm not well when I'm like that. Really not well.

The irony of wanting to feel heart broken is that a part of feeling heart broken is wanting to not feel heart broken.
031026
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Death of a Rose is so vast I have forgotten not the hollow empty hole that it makes, but forgotten what happened to dig that hole. 031026
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ClairE There is a way
to love someone
and not want them.

There is a way
to be in love,
hopelessly in love
so hopeless
you can see it yourself.

There is a way
to feel your heart expand
just from being around her.
Nothing more
and yet something missing.

Maybe there are just certain people who glow all the time.
031026
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Witchesrequiem Want to cry, climb the walls and sleep it all away. Realize none of this will bring him back or make my life ok. Wish that I could fly away and live amoungst the stars. Never to feel pain again or have to drown it in a bar. 031027
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nomatter ill make out with him in that dirty parking lot cause i just dont give a fuck 031027
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ClairE I hope to make the majority of my life occur here. 031027
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Just a thought If you have never loved then are you constantly between hartbreaks.

If so then why bother.

If not then why bother.

And if you actually are in between hartbreaks dosn't that mean you are in love.
040907
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mips i think that stands to reason, just a thought...
or maybe you arent still in love, but anticipating falling in it, and being broken hearted when you fall through

but maybe not all loves end in heartache and heartbreak...
040912
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unhinged silence_like_glass


i am such a good friend. i watch them all find women to be committed to, none of them understanding that was all i really wanted too. all my friends tell me to wait. i make silence_like_glass. i have nothing to come home to, no one, nada. they tell me to wait. it will happen when it's supposed to, just wait.


i don't believe them. my fortitude wanes.
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