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Mahayana
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im just curious if i am the only one?
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notme
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is this a trick question?
is a loner.
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Mahayana
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No, its not a trick question just wondering if anyone felt like they needed/wanted to talk with someone tonight, im feeling rather lonely myself and would welcome the distraction of anothers voice and thoughts.
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notme
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sorry, was just playing.
i usually feel lonely when i'm awake,
and sleeping doesn't help much.
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Mahayana
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i know exactly how you feel
sleeping would help me but
i cannot sleep with a heavy heart
and my insomnia doesnt help much neither
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notme
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Lonely Girls
Chorus:
Lonely girls, lonely girls
Lonely girls, lonely girls
Heavy blankets, heavy blankets, heavy blankets
Cover lonely girls
Sweet sad songs, sweet sad songs, sweet sad songs,
Sung by lonely girls
(Repeat Chorus)
Pretty hairdos, pretty hairdos, pretty hairdos
Worn by lonely girls
Sparkly rhinestones, sparkly rhinestones, sparkly rhinestones
Shine on lonely girls
(Repeat Chorus)
I oughta know, I oughta know, I oughta know
About lonely girls
(Repeat Chorus)
-williams, lucinda
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audioblog
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yeah! thats it. smiles brightly
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Smurf
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(cries) Soo Beautifull
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smurfus rex
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sometimes when I get this way I make it worse by loading my "Brooding" playlist into Winamp.
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delial
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i am! ... and this song doesn't help me any;
"no, not "baby" anymore
if i need you, i'll just use your simple name
only kisses on the cheek from now on
and in a little while, we'll only have to wave,"
...::forces self to sleep::
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ferret
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i am both awake, AND lonely.
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just another teen fuckup
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Mahayana
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well the next time that someone is both lonely and awake and/or just lonely or just awake...
id be more than willing to make a phone call -- i have free nights and weekends, so anyone in the US is fair game for me ...
im not really exciting, im not really anything special but sometimes i understand the inclination of needing to hear anothers voice out there... esp. on lonely nights
[if you may ever need this, please let me know]
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minnesota_chris
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I need it every so often, and it'd be fun to talk to you. How do we reach you?
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love & hate
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I am always awake and lonely, there is no distraction.
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kookaburra
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i am awake.
im am not lonely.
i am lonely late at night when nobody is here and i come on this site.
"blather should never be empty, i cant take it"
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unhinged
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i called you when i was awake and lonely sass and you never returned my call
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kookaburra
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anyone_asleep_and_lonely_right_now
"???"
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Piso Mojado
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if i had been online last night, i wouldve loved to talked to you Mahayana.
(these days i have only one friend in this city, and loneliness strikes often)
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Mahayana
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+ Minnesota_chris,
I would enjoy talking to you as well, i agree it would be fun indeed. I would enjoy it esp. on nights you would feel as if you really needed it.
I can be reached on my cell, the only ironically horrible thing is this, the display unit on my phone died today when i was on it and was talking to my girlfriend and i guess i cried too much cuz for now-- i cant see the display but can sometimes make calls. I just got authorization to send it in to be repaired since it is still under warrenty, so perhaps in another 15 business days I can reassert my offers.
+ unhinged hun!!! when did you call me, i never ever got a voice mail from you/nor any messages that informed me i missed a call from a number i didnt recognize. awww unhinged im so so so sorry do you remember how long ago you called me sweetie, im so very sorry i missed it and im even more sorry that you were awake and lonely. i swear i would have returned it had i ever known you called me. Please forgive me for whatever happened was [not] by my choice at all. when my phone comes back from the shop please let me try to return your call to you -- ok?
PS if you can put up with me, i would love to hang out with you sometime, i mean holy-creepes we live in the same damn Milwaukee County and we've yet to see each other again since your amazing concert. Im sure you have a whole swarm of wonderful friends here in the city but if youre ever lonely and/or would love some company... let me know.
+ Piso Mojado, i would've loved to have talked with you as well. Im sorry to hear about only having one friend in that city of yours [may i ask without being too nosey, where do you live?]Lets take care of the loneliness when it strikes again, of course after I get my cellphone back from the shop--that is.
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When I get my phone back I will post here to let everyone know, and when the mood strikes and people need someone to talk to or just simply want to talk to someone -- then we shall -- as far as numbers are concerned i would need peoples numbers then since I have free long distance on my cell -- that way it wont cost yall any money to chat with me.
[just my luck hey, when i really would benefit from connecting with others i had to go cry my eyes out and make my screen disappear... but shhh im not telling them that at the shop otherwise they wont fix my damn expensive phone]
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magicforest
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tonight, yes
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Piso Mojado
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Mahayana- im sorry about your phone being broken. it's hard to be isolated involuntarily.
the city is los angeles. i grew up here (am living at home until the fall) and all the people i knew in high school have gone their respective ways/to their respective colleges.
i am feeling lonely right now (saturday nights are the worst,) but i am going to take a bath with lavender essential oil- hopefully that will lull me to sleep.
sweet dreams
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sincerely
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i am in the same boat as piso (i think it was) in the sense that almost all of my friends have moved recently and my one real friend left is too infactuated with a new girl friend to do much, so i am often lonley at nights when i cant sleep.
if you ever want to talk to someone you dont know (or bairly know if youve been here for awhile) IM me with AIM, im mirabara11. if you want to call, sry im too cheap to pay long distance, ill give you # on aim.
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Syrope
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not for long
i just
wish there were words
for the sobs
that finally come
that grip and rack the body
and the tears that squeeze out of angrily squinted eyes
and the comfort that being alone can bring
when you don't want to be around yourself any more
and suddenly everything is more real
this damp tissue, the colors reflecting off my wet eyelashes, the soft textures of the arm of the couch holding me up, the feeling of my fingerprints against the smooth skin on my leg
i'm so tired
but going to sleep would be surrenduring control
i don't trust myself in the realm of dreams
i know that there are thoughts in my mind that i couldn't wake up after realizing
i forget to breathe until the next tear drips and hits my chest, but when i gasp my lungs hold it against me
i want to drown in the emptiness
i can't survive in this silence
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unhinged
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it was probably about two months ago now that i called; it was on a saturday and i left a message, as nicole not as unhinged, and i am awake and lonely all the time in this goddamn town. i guess i have pals but no real friends. and i'm starting to drown again. remember the shostakovich that you heard that day? i learned it this semester, second violin. we performed at turner hall a couple of weeks ago and it was super cool. it was a fundraiser for the peck school of the arts with art work and film and music; they miked us. and we all wore black in a burnt and ravaged ballroom and it was very shostakovich.
yes, it is a shame that we never see each other. call me sometime, send an email for my number.
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Mahayana
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email sent :}
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unhinged
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email sent back
:-/
but for you
:-)
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jane
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always awake
usually lonely
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souless wanderer
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always
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kookaburra
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i told you im asleep...
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Dosquatch
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Aren't we all we all really asleep? Aren't we all just going through the motions of this waking dream, this "reality" that has been created, to turn the human body into this? (holds up a battery)
Oh... wait, wrong script.
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kookaburra
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hee hee thats pretty nifty...
i said nifty...
it has got to be time for bed...
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Mahayana
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im going to be up all night tonight and probably extremely lonely ...
ill admit freely that i am tremendously depressed right now; i dont want to live any longer, and im feeling rather intolerable towards myself; however, pleasse dont let these words of current condition put fear into you for i dont see this truly pivotal as far as me bringing you down but rather and as an opportunity for me to lose myself in someone else’s words, problems, be it whatever it may be ... someone else's life...
right now, here in these ineloquent words of mine, im going to take the chance and be completely exposed and vulnerable ... ill say quite honestly that ... im hurting incredibly awful and would welcome the company of others, esp. if you can identify with any emotion that i have been feeling lately. i would like to be there for you, if i may, and just listen to you as you perhaps vent, or talk about your day, hell im not even afraid to hear someone cry on the other line [although it would greatly sadden me to hear you in pain like that] I want you all to know that it would be ok with me entirely.
If you think you may want/need this tonight, or merely would enjoy some company just let me know and we can discuss getting your phone number to me via email so that I may call you; however, just know that my night minutes don’t start until after 9:01 PM Central Standard Time… anytime after that im fair game. Also if you post interest in this tonight and for some reason I cant come to the computer to get your phone number please try not to feel rejected by me at all – just know that something had come up and that im not ignoring you and furthermore know that it is not b/c you are not good enough for me to call you – I wont feel that way at all. I extend this offer from me to anyone that would benefit from it, even if you don’t like me or haven’t liked me in the past – I don’t care – these things don’t matter to me.
Please be well everyone and just know that I do care about you all – even if i never show you guys or never show you properly that I do, please know that I do.
With utmost Sincerity
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love & hate
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Dear Mayanah.
I understand your feelings as i too feel them myself. Please explain the predicament you are in as it seems very similar to mine and we can keep each other company through the long lonely night.
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Piso Mojado
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mahayana-
although we have never really talked (except for the above exchange) i would really like to talk to you tonight (or if not tonight soon) because i know how you feel- i have been feeling this way for atleast a year now (some days are easier than others, some i can barely go on)
and i would like to share with you- words, coversation, simpatico, memories, hopes, fears, etc.
so at your convenience email me.
sarah
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Piso Mojado
[youve got mail!]
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