anhedonia
paradive i'm just plaing emotional blackjack 010917
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paradive i'm just playing emotional blackjack 010917
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unhinged i always lose at that game 010917
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kss you stand and smile
and Iíve already accepted
your resignation
before you even say
hello

stuck
in a perpetual state
of compensation
always building,
working,
planning.

never feeling
like Iíve arrived.
when can I relax?

faith is a mental state
designed for counteracting
contradictory signs
filling the empty
a mental distraction
from the lacking

finally
when the lights turn off
itís cold and dark and quiet
and the echos of something else
fade away
021112
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from