am_i_thought
yummychuckle "notice that at times you speak without thinking at all. There are times--perhaps most of the time--when speach is identical to thought. Whaen you speak without thinking a word before speaking each word, thought does not initiate speech. Then speech is identical to thought. Then thought is speech. Then thought is not inwardness, but action itself.
"I" may become outwardly silent, but thought can and usually does go on and on. Even so, thought is no different from speech. "I" think and speak. Or "I" witness the process of thinking and speaking.Oh yes, and inner feeling too. If "I" write while "I" think, "I" often cease to think first and then write. There is simply writing, which is the same as thinking.
There is no "thinking" that is itself a concrete, independant subject behind action and speech. When "I" am still inward, "I" may think "I" am identical to the process of thinking. But when "I" act, or speak, or write, the thinking process becomes one with activity--particularly when "I" am feeling most directed into the process or the relational pattern of action or speaking or writing.
It would seem, then, that when "I" am brought into action most fully, "I" am without any independant subjectivity. The separate, inner initiator of action and speech dissolves into action and speech itself. Then who or what am "I"?"

--some book. made a long while ago. by some person named bubba.
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