always_waking_up_alone_just_makes_wanna_die
kill rhythm ...

sophia
020610
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blown cherry ditto 020610
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CrAzYpInKmOnKeY I love you
i really do
but ill never
have you but
thats ok bcuz
your happy
but i know
the real you
we are to
close for
you to fool
me. god she
is such a
bitch do you
think i cant
hear you crying
I LIVE WITH YOU DAMMIT!!
of course i can
hear you but youll
stop if i knock
and act like every
thing is ok
and i wont even
ask cuz youll
just deny it........
....why wont you let
me help you?
020701
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little fury bug that's why i don't sleep.
insomnia.
020702
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endless desire . 031202
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phil brilliant diagnoses 031202
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phil see also: diagnosis 031202
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. . 050319
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unhinged and the drugs have only been intensifying this lately

only alleviated somehow
by being alone
by getting fucked_up alone
by staying alone


i think human interaction only teases me with the hope of it; that i won't wake up alone for the rest of my life.
050319
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dandy buy a dog?

work on soft skills, get hobbies, get out, focus on kindness and love and caring, let yourself be fascinated about everyone so it attracts people to you.

Or roll over and go back to sleep?
050320
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unhinged i don't sleep when i roll over
just toss and turn
to finally fall asleep an hour before the alarm goes off
050321
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not god you get married and after years you end up sleeping alone anyway. 050321
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from