always_shaking kate i'll wait just long enough for you to think i am gone i won't wear a coat even in february the sidewalk slick with ice under my shaking limbs i can't notice over my buzz of perpetual lightness (i was thinking only of you in the cold night walk somewhere i'd rather not be more a place in life, state of my mind, then physical location i feel stuck) 010303 ... florescent light you're saying exactly what I've been thinking Tonight actually. 010303 ... unhinged dude i'm fine. no i've always been like this. ever since i could remember. i always fucked up our labs in high school chemistry cause i would get really nervous and fuck all the measurements up cause i was shaking so much. why? why do you want to see my arms? no dude. i don't fucking shoot heroin. i never have. what are you trying to say? this conversation is ludicrous. i was an addicted fetus. what can i say? 010304 ... kate and then unstuck but alone? without lacking now it isn't my body but my heart that shakes - "these moments when I'm shaking leave me shivering for days" or something. 010305 ... chanaka we Talked and i shook worse than the proverbial leaf in the breeze i love Talks and hate them perpetually shaking i struggle to keep the words under control 010305 ... mikey i start shaking very badly when im on the verge of finding out im gonna lose the one i love. maybe finding out their cheating. or realizing their moving on without me or away from me. hard to describe but i start shaking very badly and its almost like violent shivers =o( 010306 ... Aimee I'm always shaking... sometimes it's from the cold, but sometimes it's because I really need to cry and I just can't let myself do it. That's why I'm shaking now. Another emotion to bottle up. maybe one day I'll get my wish. maybe one day I'll stop feeling. I try to think of all I've gained, but all I can see is what I've lost. It's all people. Once again I'm dejected. God, i just really wish i could cry... I need to so badly.. I cried a little last night, but that was because I was tired. Maybe if I just sit here long enough, I'll finally cry... or maybe I'll actually manage to bottle it all up. 010315 ... deb this house is always too cold 010316 ... lost i shake when on the verge of telling someone how i feel about them. like when i told my girlfreind how i felt about her. I was shaking like a leaf. I also shake when someone that i really care about has to tell me something and by the look on their face i know it is bad. I also know by their red eyes. Red from crying. I think that the time I shook most was when this girl that i could honestly say i loved commited suicide. I was really shaken up because I never got to tell her how I felt. It was so all of the sudden. One day one of her freinds walks up to me. She was cryin and she said,"Harlan! Stacy is gone, she killed herself ." She knew it would break my heart because she knew how i felt. So she didnt tell me until three days after it happened. 010316 ... Paragraph Two weeks... It's a long time on this lonely man's calendar. and tonight, I will sleep less than I need to. but I will sleep well, knowing that in time I will find my way back into your embrace. (my cocoon) and I will lose myself in those comforting eyes. and all this wasted body heat will finally be put to use... 010319 ... stupidpunkgirl my hands shake constantly...i don't drink caffeine anymore because they were so bad. it helps a little. i shake violently when i walk outside and sit in a cold car. i always loved how you kept a blanket for my in the car...because you were worried about me when i shook 010319 ... god sowieso 011030 ... unhinged and then i left you behind and learned how to breathe 090407 what's it to you? who go blather from