alone_in_the_crowd
Sonya the sullen feline Surrounded by layers upon layers of spoiled brats I can't seem to breathe because they all stare so hard they strangle my throat with their eyes and I can't seem to look away even though I know I should because I don't belong with these people or in this place or in this world. I'm alone in the crowd, looking for him. I want to run to him, but I think maybe he doesn't exist. Maybe he was never real. He no longer holds my hand in the crowd. And now I realize I can't stand on my own...maybe I should sell my soul and just conform. Oh where are you? 011009
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dB It's the worse kind of sadness. Being alone in the empty is second only to being alone in the crowd.
I feel for ya, coz I know what it's like. 		011010
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endless desire worst than anything.
worst than anything in the world.
because you are alone and surrounded
and they all say hello.
and they are all there waiting for something from you. a response and your attention and your everything. just to steal it from you. rape you of everything that you love.
and they just pass by so quickly.
guess what?
i don't see you.
i don't feel you.
i just sit there and smile.
dont you love that?
my smirk. im laughing at the world
because i don't want to be a part of it.
i don't want to be part of any of you.
you have no victory over me
so don't assume you do.
god how i_hate_you
i don't know how to say go away and mean it more. 		031016
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endless is so fed up with everything AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK! AND IM NOT COMPARING MYSELF TO YOU ANY LONGER. I AM FINE JUST AS I AM AND I DONT WANT ANY OF YOU. I AM NOT CHANGING MYSELF JUST SO I CAN FEEL BETTER IN YOUR PRESENCE. I DON'T CARE ANYTHING ABOUT ANYTHING THAT YOU THINK AND I'M NOT LETTING IT AFFECT ME ANYMORE. SO YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR OPINIONS UP YOUR ASS. THEY'LL DO MUCH BETTER THERE. 031016
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Road holy shit batman 031016
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megan stomach drops
clammy hands
no words that could make their way up past brambles, at least no words that make enough sense to throw out there
everyone always seems to have that one other person they could always turn to, someone who will talk to them if there seems to be no one else a little higher on the ladder
i have three people i can talk to and be myself
and those three people surround me a lot, i am lucky in that respect, but those times when they're not there
i'm not there 		050122
what's it to you?
who go 		blather
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