alone_at_night Dallas and dreaming of someone someone new, someone true something breathing softly next to me. 001002 ... Barrett ...Wondering if you are too. 001002 ... moonshine Aye! Theres nothing better. 001003 ... misstree who is surely not up to her usual antics. mmm. but sometimes it's good to be alone and quiet. 010114 ... the one in your bed, all alone, smelling how you smell, your cologne. if only you were here with me. if only i could hold you next to me. i want to just scream and tell everyone that i LOVE you and i dont know what to do. I dont know how to tell you that i dont care anymore. I just want to be with you. i just want us to be true. honest and cool. cuz ive never felt like this and i dont know what to do. 011213 ... ClairE always 011213 ... swansons frozen fried birdmad i keep hoping i'll wake up and find myself back on that charter bus from Tucson, 14 years old, late on a saturday evening in mid-february with my best friend asleep in the seat next to me, her head resting on my shoulder, her headphones plugged into the extra port on my walkman and her tape in there too, her hand somehow in mine (that wasn't how we fell asleep), i tried to say something when my dad came to get us and we dropped her off at her house as i walked her to her door...i spent eighteen months tripping over the words to try and tell her...and the moment i finally did i became invisible she was the last person to know me as an innocent that was almost 16 years ago and except for a phase in those years afterward when i took all the sex i could get for the love i couldnt have, i am usually alone_at_night 011213 ... ClairE Maybe not tonight. 011214 ... ClairE again 011217 ... littleidiot sucks. a lot. especially when your own thoughts are driving you insane and you just need to talk to a special someone, but you can't, coz they're off doing whatever the hell it is they're doing and you feel so lost and empty. 021229 ... good people usually 021229 what's it to you? who go blather from