after_this_many_years so fucking lost my scars erupt by themselves blood pours down my forearm my heart starts to blacken once more and i am consumed bewildered by the old spiral of confusion, hate and pain. its like awakening again and it feels... good. and my rational brain says worriedly 'thats bad, right?' and i try so very hard to care 020209 ... three words boring after_this_many_years events 050911 ... jane i'm_still_alive 070806 what's it to you? who go blather from