a_point_in_time
Raina there was a point in time when I wasn't afraid. I wasn't lonely. My confidence was unshakeable. I was more dynamic and had more to offer.

now, it's not that way, but I'm not really in a state of despair.

I realize, there will be times when you feel like shit.
When you lose sight of what you have to offer.
When you forget the people who love and care about you.
When you doubt your own strength.

I see that's the phase I'm in now, I'll be out of it soon. Rebuilt, and feeling better about the person that I am
030327
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Raina Over 1 year later, and still no change.

I am in the butt of a rut...

Jeez
040628
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once again a place to mark the moment... "and in that instant his lips touched her and she would never be the same"

but no. You don't note the second that your lips meet. You don't know you're changed. Because really... the kiss is just a catalyst, and you move on from there.

You never mark the seconds that make you who you are, because you'd have to capture your life one moment at a time and just as humans have not the scope to see the clock where the big hand goes around just once, neither can we see the clock where the second hand is longest (or maybe too big to measure)

So I mark this point in time.

and at that point... I was a culmination of every point before it, unnoticed, unmarked. I was a monument to the storie of my life.

But I'm different now. A thousand points have passed that I forgot to mark.
040629
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nonlucid now things suck, then things were sane, now i'm sad, then i was happy, soon i'll be happy again - can turn on a dime, as the expression goes

any point in time is objectively the same as any other yet I can only see from now, what the chemicals in the brain are doing at the moment, what my current imbalance, realising that soon i will be okay (or not okay, again)

but i drown in subjectivity, there's no escape
perhaps that's a good thing
040702
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skinny dont discriminate from one moment to the next, and you wont be ok, but you'll be alive. its when things get stuck in your head and stay there forever that you feel like ending it. this isnt the answer, because its harder than it sounds.
now is the only thing thats real, and pain and happiness are equally important.
040703
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kx21 Moment_of_Truth 040703
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the most memorable image of the invasion An "Icon" of United States in
the Sphere of Freedom_and_Democracy:-

Army Stage-Managed Fall of Hussein Statue

Jul 3, 7:55 AM ET

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=2026&ncid=2026&e=6&u=/latimests/20040703/ts_latimes/armystagemanagedfallofhusseinstatue

It was a Marine colonel not joyous Iraqi civilians, as was widely assumed from the TV images who decided to topple the statue, the Army report said. 040703
040703
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kookaburra i think you could write a truly unique poem about each point in time.
but im just too lazy to try.
040703
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a "Point" The_most_memorable_image_of_the_invasion 040703
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Finger America_attacked_911's_flash_file 040703
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The_missing_dot Contact_of_United_States_and_Osama_bin_Laden 040703
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Moon Fahrenheit_911 040703
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Moment_of_truth More_than_11317_Iraqi_civilians_have_been_killed
during US-Led WAR - Invasion & Occupation in Iraq since 20 Mar 2003...
040703
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ivyducktwilightseto A point in time
When Kx21 finally ruined every single fucking blathe. Thanks little buddy.

Honesly... MUST YOU??? I will be okay with you filling up your own pages with news articles and such, but please don't ruin perfectly good ones.
040704
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a "point" Michael_Moore 040704
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What Michael Moore said http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/3739325.stm

"I want to make sure if I do nothing else for the rest of this year that those who died in Iraq have not died in vain"
040704
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WP Iraq_not_'US'_cash_spent_on_rebuilding

Iraqis bear brunt of rebuilding costs
040704
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:) s_e_e_d_s___o_f___l_i_g_h_t

what_goes_around_comes_around
040704
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mp21 quantum_fluctuations 040704
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seventeen these layered shells of memories reshuffle when I'm on dxm. everything is intertwined and all my memories are fresh and scrubbed clean of fog/time.

I remember these points in time, where I've forgotten how strongly I felt. I remember the firsts, as if it was really new.

and that is why I take dxm for two days in a row when I remember that it is there, once every few months or so.

that, and I sometimes feel that I have nothing left to hold.
040704
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:) 1776_feet 040704
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kx21 ilink:- Ground_Zero 040729
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Raina is not amused :-(

Well, what a magnificent monster this blather turned out to be....
040816
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:) s_e_e_d_s___o_f___l_i_g_h_t

randomly_scattered_seeds
040816
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globalfruitbat big and scaly, with periods and colons dripping from its teeth like saliva collected whilst devouring college essays on the rights of the individual

covered in warts and reactionary ideas--some good in their own way but about as subtle as a sledgehammer to the head
040816
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a "point" superstring_multidimensional_crap 040817
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An "amazing" newslink http://www.jordantimes.com/fri/opinion/opinion4.htm

The morality of going to war
040821
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. Do you wonder how the operatives of Al Qaeda sleep at night? No problem, I think. After swallowing the double narcotic of killing unbelievers and promised sensuality, they sleep the peace of the just, despite the lack of approval for such beliefs in Islamic theology.
A more interesting question is how George W. Bush (War_president / Commander_in_chief) and Tony Blair (War_promoter) get a good night's sleep. What have they imbibed?
040821
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silentbob Look at the 'from' of some of these blathes, these flooded non-blathes. its almost disgusting.
This could be about anything and i would be annoyed. Seriously, fucking... hell.
Some of these could have content i might like to read, but they dont because its just links to other shit.
what the fuck.
Please take it upon yourself to calm
the fuck
down
040826
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:) 32_more_to_000_'full_sized_commemorative_coffins'

Amen.
040826
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. To_be_precise:

32_more_to_1000_full_sized_commemorative_coffins

Amen.
040826
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kookaburra ow.
the from button hurst me.
040826
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silentbob ???? 040827
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mourninglight a point in time
a static point in time
a static point in shifting time
a static point to hold onto, in shifting time...
shifting time?

wow...

hey...it could happen
040827
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3 Words and 21 Kx-es Five_words_that_describe_you : life_is_so_awesome , Tart ! 060123
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from