a_fool Kaskarkaminski I have often been called a fool. But i don't know many happy people, and i enjoy each day as the last, and many people resent contentedness. 000806 ... Kaskarkaminski there is some irony in that 000806 ... CinnamonGirl I'm a lovefool I hate myself for that I mean I'm a girl I should play with boys not let them use me etc 010605 ... Dafremen Your attitude isn't the problem lady, theirs is. 010605 ... Dafremen P.S. Stop being a sucker before they turn your heart to stone. K? Nuff said. 010605 ... yummychuckle i'm a fool. hehe i like that word. its just not an ordinary name someone would yell at me. and if someone did I'd probably stop being so serious about whatever argument this occured in and start giggling. my friends arent the type to say 'fool"... 010605 ... CinnamonGirl let me ask you a question daf, what would you prefer-to be with someone you love but uses you or to not be with that person at all? 010606 ... Sol Manha de carnival (or 'a day in the life of...' 010606 ... sim 'Girl asks a good question. My public personae says I'd rather tell a User to fuck off on sandpaper, but deep in the dark and distressing regions of my psyche I know what addiction is like... it's an irrational and frightening thing. Fight it, baby. 010606 ... Dafremen If you have found someone that you like who uses you, the first thing I suggest you do is decide WHAT it is you like about that person. IF you make a list of the things that you like about that person and one of the things on that list is NOT that he uses and abuses you, then I suggest you leave him. There are TONS of people out there, TONS of em, and there's bound to be one out there that has all of those things that you like WITHOUT the use and abuse. If however it turns out that part of what you like about this person is the fact that he uses you, then I say stay with him, you were meant for each other. 010606 ... CinnamonGirl it's not that simple, first let me just say that it's not that bad at all it's not like he hits me or anything and he's nice to me and all, not he's not pretending I know he loves me but I also know he doesn't love me as much as I do and that he loves me as a friend and attracted to me as someone he can do whatever he wants with, I mean physically (not abusing or anything). and of course I don't like that fact but hey everyone has their fucks, I can live with it it's not that bad and maybe some day he'll realise I'm not only good for the sexual part, he already does in a way or he would talk to me, he thinks I use him just as much. and about that "there are plenty fish in the sea" things, not for me you see I'm fucked up, he was my first love and no matter who I will be with he will always be compared to that person, naturally and I find it extremely hard for me to be attracted to someone, I'm 16 and I've been attracted to only 2 guys all of my life, I've had apprutunities but nothing's good enough for me. So you tell me, should I really give this up? 010607 ... sim Cinnamon, take it from this old girl: Yes. Unquestionably. Give it up. I know that's completely useless advice and you probably won't take it, but someday you'll wish you'd had. Trust me on that one. It sounds like you're having fun with this guy, but honestly there's a lot more fun to be had out there, and it will be with people who actually return all that you give and then some. Besides, when I look back at what sex was like at 16 and what it's like for me now (as I enter "my sexual prime" and all that middle-age crap,) there's just no comparison. So don't worry about missing out, or feeling like you're wasting an opportunity or something. Trust me, it only gets better, and it really helps to have someone whose motives you don't have to question. ;-) 010607 ... Dafremen Yup. You'll never get on with your life (relationshipwise) until you do. First love hangups are pretty sto0pid even though they affect some pretty smart people. I knew a girl like that once. To her, being with other guys but not COMMITTING to those guys was sort of her way of "remaining faithful" to her first love. Everyone else saw her as a slut. Shame too, she was a nice girl. 010607 ... CinnamonGirl I know people may see me as a slut but the fact I'm not commiting has nothing to do with my first love. it's not that I'm "faithful" to him in any way I actually TRY to love other people I even try hard but for example there's this guy that I guess if he wanted commitment I'd give to him but HE doesn't want and there was another guy that DID want commitment and I gave him a 5 days chance I just couldn't, you know why? cause I didn't love him, I don't know why I didn't I mean he has looks and he's nice and has great taste in music.... I just didn't want him at all! and it has nothing to do with my first love ok, by the way that first love told me he loves me TWICE yesterday and wanted to meet but the way he said it I dunno kinda took me for granted and it seems like he thought that whenever he says, I'm there so I proved him other and didn't agree I told him I have other plans. But I mean I thought maybe I CAN make him love me u know? Maybe with time he'll realise because I know he already does just not enough and his love for me grows with time so I've noticed. What I gotta do is a closer which I can't really now because I'm gonna have to spend a week with him in a foreign country, we're going to see depeche mode concert together in Oct. I believe you guys and that's what everyone says but maybe it's not really true, it is in a way and in a way it isn't 010608 ... Dafremen Tell you what. If I was a young man with standby p*ssy, you can bet I'd tell you I loved you too. I'd tell you anything I could to keep you on standby or to bring you back out of mothballs when I was in between girls. You do what you're going to do, but people don't change when you reward them for how they are acting. They change when the way they are acting is detrimental to them in some. THis guy is only going to change long after you are out of his life. 010608 ... CinnamonGirl will it help if I'll play a little hard to get? I mean sexually 010609 ... Dafremen I wish it were that easy, but you've already been categorized in his mind. Why don't you go find yourself a nice guy. I don't mean just to make him jealous either, I mean honestly find someone ELSE that you can be happy with and DON'T make the same mistake this time. 010609 ... CinnamonGirl I've tried so many times I'll try again but till I actually find someone who cannot be compareable to him it'll be pretty long I guess I kinda realised it myself before oh and thanks 010610 ... Yes A fool is someone who attempts to go to war with the US and its allies. 010911 ... Dafremen I hope that everything worked out for you Canela Girl. You seem like a nice enough person, I'd hate to find out you're a moron. That would be a conflict of interest for me...I think you understand. 010918 ... kx21 Refer to turing_test_1_subject_kx21 for The_Truth and its Proof... 010919 ... Katie Rose sometimes even when I try to do everything right, I still come out in the end feeling like a stupid fool. 011107 ... Casey I used to be the king, but now i am the fool. A captain without a ship, a rabbi without a shoul. 011107 ... "A" Man We've all been one. 071214 what's it to you? who go blather from